Going back to work....

My maternity leave has come to an end and I couldn't be more sad and nervous about it. I have one day left and plan on spending the whole day holding and playing with him. 

When I first had Liam, I had times when I didn't know if I could stay home all 12 weeks. The thought of being confined to the house all summer with this massive amount of new responsibility was daunting! It scared me to death! But as the weeks went on and I got more and more comfortable as a mom and more comfortable getting out of the house with him, staying home didn't seem so bad! And now that we have his feeding issues under control, life couldn't be better! Just in time for me to leave him :( 

He has become such a fun and happy baby, I can't even think about missing out on that every day! I have this weird guilt about going back to work - I feel like he won't understand why I'm not there to talk to him and play with him everyday! He won't understand why all of the sudden I am taking him somewhere for someone else to take care of him all day. I realize he most likely isn't thinking this at all, but I can't help but wonder :)  The thought of leaving this tiny baby, who means the world to me, with complete strangers is making me a nervous wreck! I know many moms go back to work and I will eventually get used to it, but right now it's heartbreaking!

Here is a picture from meeting his teacher today. She was great and made me feel a little better, but it's inevitable that Friday is going to be a hard day for me!